Trip away continued ...

Well as I mentioned in my previous post, I am not the fittest, I am in fact of the larger build so when I was in line for rides I would check out whether any larger guys were getting on the ride etc so that I could avoid the embarrassing experience of waiting all that time, then making people wait while I was extracted because I was too big for the safety gear etc.

I also don't like photos taken of me because of my size, I always look waaay larger than I feel and it can lead to me getting a little down over it. Sorry what was that ? Yes I am doing something about it by going to the gym 4-5 days a week.

Anyway, out of the dozen rides I think I was kicked off one for being too big. Well I like to say that the equipment was too small. :-) Built for kids and women even.

I can't remember which ride it was exactly but it was one of those rides where the restraint comes down over your head and sits on your shoulders and over your chest. I pulled it down and it wouldn't let me clip in the belt so an attendant came over to apply some force on it.

Here I was sitting there, self conscious (again) and this attendant started leaning on this restraint. To my surprise I wasn't feeling any pressure on my belly, the place I expected it to be, but my chest, my upper chest to be exact. I then realised that it's not my gut stopping me it's the fact that my upper body dimensions are larger than the average joe.

I finally started to understand what my wife was telling me that whilst I was way overweight, I was solidly built, broad shoulders and a barrel chest (as a friend politely pointed out). Of course doing resistance training at the gym has helped there too.

I still need to lose the weight but I now realise that this image that I have/had of myself has been distorted, clouded by my weight, sure I have to lose weight but I will never be a lean thin luvin machine that society, the media says we should all be, that's not my body type, but instead I'll be a nice hunk of a man.

I can live with that.